This is a rage post

The title explains it. I was so excited when I heard Jung Joon Young was nominated for one of the biggest award shows, 2014 MAMA. However, this elation was short-lived when I realised the category he was nominated under.

urghFor goodness sake Mnet, Jung Joon Young is the MC for your music show and has even promoted his songs through your program. Just because he promoted alongside a band does not make him a band. Having all these happenings known to you yet still placing him under the best band category is just sad. This is honestly so ridiculous, you don’t need a fan to point this mistake out. Mnet you need to get your shit together. As a matter of fact, Jung Joon Young is a soloist for the umpteenth time.

And as I was writing this alter bridge’s Open Your Eyes happened to be playing. 100% relatable.

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The Best Thing About Being Honest With Yourself

Originally posted on Thought Catalog:

There are so many things we identify with, so many ways we decide who we are based on style that we admire and opinions that are the collective average of the people we surround ourselves with. We’re so disconnected from our core selves, we latch onto everything around us to try to compile a person from confusion.

And all you end up with are the pieces of somebody else’s life.

It’s the advice you’re given all the time, though it’s often ignored because we don’t know where to start: knowing yourself, becoming your own locus of control, is the most important thing in the world. You can’t expect to find somebody who loves you for you when you don’t even know who you are. You’re not going to know what dreams you want to follow; you’ll trap yourself in the could and should and must of a person you’re only…

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Behind those words

I can’t believe how fast time actually flies. It’s been a year since I had graduated from NY, 8 months since I had received my not-so-very-good results and a little more than 3 months since I had made a life-changing decision of taking a gap year. Previously I was cautious mentioning about this choice and found myself sliding in and out of my comfort zone constantly. Just as how practically everyone was doubtful of my decision, I believe I was more uncertain than anyone else. While my loved ones came to understand my thoughts gradually, I was sure that wholehearted support was never in the picture. My voice became smaller but I kept going anyhow since there was no turning back. The number of new people I had met in these 2 months plus easily surpassed the number of new people I had met in any other phase of my life. From new colleagues to interviewees, I was glad I had met each and every of them because watching their reactions and perspective of my decision was also amusing and interesting. Just last week, I was interviewing a cafe owner and she revealed her unconventional education path as an Arts student. And after I had shared about my education choices and current workscope, she said to me: ” Good job, you’ve made the right choice.” And this was my first ever approval. Those words were surprisingly overwhelming as it dawned on me how much I yearned to hear those supportive words. What’s more, it came from someone I barely knew. It was funny how I was able to open up to her so easily when previously I was so hesitant in telling my friends. I left the place feeling more light-hearted than ever, as if a boulder had been lifted off my shoulders and it felt like I could raise my head again. I guess this is why people relate their stories to strangers: because of this magical element of comfort one received.

Jung Joon Young

Ben told me he couldn’t understand why I am so into Jung Joon Young. It’s okay Ben, you’re not the only one.

tumblr_nc63ihQ4yA1seo0pbo1_500Some fans know him through Superstar K4 ( a korean singing competition) or We Got Married. Others recognised him as a rising star in variety shows. I mean just look at him.

tumblr_myyvdnXrex1t6fjjoo4_500tumblr_myyvdnXrex1t6fjjoo2_500tumblr_myyvdnXrex1t6fjjoo3_500And look at what the Weekly Idol ( variety show) MC said.

tumblr_n95hjsqbd61ru7khoo3_500tumblr_n95hjsqbd61ru7khoo1_500And that’s just a glimpse of his 32D personality.

Screenshot 2013-10-23 22.23.04Tell me who else uses guitar cases as a suitcase to store skincare products.

ibsiYTVEwbI3IrJJY’s reaction when he found out his on screen wife is much older than him. LIKE WHATTTTTT

jung-joon-young_1387742593_afWhen he heard that moisture helps to cut the sugar candy into the shape he wanted…

tumblr_muzqmlDlwJ1qkc652o3_r1_500An ultra-man wanna be but not quite HAHAHA

And whoever knows me knew that I have a soft spot for kids. When babysitting these 3 kids, JJY wanted to be their friend instead of a 1 Day daddy. My heart just melted when I saw these pictures.

tumblr_mw5x8yZyVx1s3a015o4_250tumblr_mw5x8yZyVx1s3a015o7_250imagestumblr_mw5x8yZyVx1s3a015o2_250Bzk_iIxCYAEojARBzk_sycCcAApTtdAnd of course not forgetting the rock spirit.

tumblr_myala6y40e1s8ewgmo1_250However, he changes completely when it’s time for him to rock on stage.

tumblr_ncc1z0SNtB1r0u46to3_500tumblr_myhxoiHbAj1r0u46to1_500BzjtsKECMAA02qjBzlN-rOCYAIon-5tumblr_ncspo1ZdvI1sh5vjno2_500tumblr_nchhs5k0GQ1sh5vjno6_1280In contrary to JJY’s 1st mini album, I was glad he penned down all the lyrics and went beyond classic rock ballads in his 2nd album. Having stood by his original music colour of alternative rock, this album appealed so much to me I downloaded all the songs ( yeah I usually nit-pick the songs).

tumblr_nchnzsasBV1rd5qnko2_400I used to hate all the screaming in rock music but it is funny how heartfelt JJY’s 2nd mini album can be. In fact, I found myself seeking comfort from exhaustion in his songs everyday after work.

With the company’s wish of him pursuing pop rock instead of hard rock in JJY’s first album, I witnessed the struggles of a true musician who was split between public’s favour of mainstream music versus his passion.

10669293_819367391440384_378739997357500893_oAnd not only did he not succumb to everyone else’s opinions, JJY relied on his own personal connections in search of a production team to help refine and express his music style.

tumblr_nbyvlwouGo1r0u46to2_500Rock may not be the most popular genre amongst the public but I was thankful that there remains someone in the industry who pursues it anyhow. Yesterday may be JJY’s 1st anniversary since debut but this is certainly not the last.

Whether you’re silly like this

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tumblr_nd6h49xMHQ1rteimro5_r1_250you’re the best because of your amazing courage despite tough times. Rock on!


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The closer we get, the better the understanding. But what if this supposed understanding leads to discontentment and refusal of acceptance? The cracks of relationships finally surfaced. Will this bottled up feelings be appeased?

I really hate penchés

“Generally speaking, the most miserable people I know are those who are obsessed with themselves; the happiest people I know are those who lose themselves in the service of others…By and large, I have come to see that if we complain about life, it is because we are thinking only of ourselves.”

Gordon B. Hinckley
Pulling through a full run through of advance 1 syllabus meant a great feat to me. It was certainly some vigorous work out but what surprised me the most was my own competitiveness; and the result which followed. I could no longer feel my legs after having completed centre work but somehow I desperately wanted to pull through pointe work as far as I can.
Because it will be embarrassing if I can’t do it.
I was glad it ended off relatively well and for once I felt satisfied with my consecutive pose turns ( I can’t even do a proper one for ages). The next question is if I’m up for the exam next year.
There are a million and one things to be worked on and I know it better than anyone else how far my standard is from the required one.
Rather than willpower, courage is what I need most but I can’t seem to find it.