i’m in a mess right now and this is the first time i feel so dumb. i’m being incredibly incorrigible and it seems like a million sighs won’t make me feel any better. i honestly want to get out of this shit but the greater my desire, the deeper i fall back in. i thought i could detach, i thought time would bring back the status quo. but apparently not. the unspoken silence makes my frustration scale to even greater heights and i have no idea what i’m feeling now, let to what i should do next.