The complexity in emotions tires me out.
For a moment I hate the world and in the next I’m angry with myself.
I am unsure with what mindset I should have when faced upon such situation.
And this is especially so when people I deemed closest to start leaving one by one.
I was afraid, saddened, helpless and above all unsure.
I kept rethinking if I made the wrong decision and if such persistence will do any help.
Like a nightmare turned into reality, it was horrible and suffocating.
As much as I yearned to run away, I found myself rooted to where I still am.
For the longest time ever, I shut myself within 4 walls.
Shutting it tight, I avoided all interactions.
And for the longest time ever, I struggled with my thoughts.
As far as I’m ready to peek out the window, the timidness in me grew as well.
But as for now I won’t back down just yet.